(Not) Fairytale.

Once upon a time,
a naive girl gave her whole heart to a boy.
Boy was her dream.
Girl thought the world of boy and
could see herself with boy forever.
(like I said, girl is naive)
Girl thought fairytale was going just peachy.
Girl thought wrong.
Boy began going behind girls back.
Girl found out.
Hearts were broken.
One shattered, one cracked.
Girl was devastated.
Girl thought nothing better would come along.
That she didn't deserve better.
Girl was wrong.
Girl began to open herself up.
Open to up to new adventures, people
and boys.
Girl realized there is something better for her.
Girl doesn't see boy for a month.
Girl goes home and sees boy.
Boy is different.
Boy's weird.
Girl realizes she no longer has feeling for boy.
Girl rejoices!
Girl realizes she and boy have grown apart.
It doesn't hurt girl anymore.
Girl feels free and at ease.
Girl can still write her fairytale.
With a Man.

sometimes.

sometimes i don't go to bed until 5:30 because i have way too much on my mind.

sometimes i just want to sleep so i can escape from all my problems.

sometimes i stay in bed until one. because of lack of motivation due to situation above.

sometimes school is the last thing i want to do.

sometimes i come home and do seven hours of math homework. seven.

sometimes i tune out the entire world and think.

sometimes i cry. and cry. and cry some more. then cry until i fall asleep.

sometimes you are lied to.

sometimes you feel like everything you made was destroyed.

sometimes you get your heartbroken.

sometimes i wish things went according to my plan.

sometimes i wonder why.

sometimes i clean to obtain relief.

sometimes i ignore my phone and the entire outside world.

sometimes i wish all these feeling will go away. now.

sometimes i realize i have something to learn.

sometimes i remember the atonement and how it cover all pains.

sometimes i have these: "the lord compensates the faithful for every loss. love may not come at a time we desire but the faithful will know that every tear today will be returned one hundred fold with tears of joy"... "when you are compelled to give up something, or when things that are dear to you are withdrawn from you, know that this is your lesson to be learned right now. but know also that as you are learning this lesson, god wants to give you something better." on my mind. all the time.

sometimes i am impatient.

sometimes i go against everything shauna ever taught.

sometimes it's refreshing and feels good.

sometimes i can't wait for bear lake. one day.

sometimes i feel like blogging is my escape.

sometimes i'd like to thank you if you read this and my blog. thank you. (: