sometimes i just want to sleep so i can escape from all my problems.
sometimes i stay in bed until one. because of lack of motivation due to situation above.
sometimes school is the last thing i want to do.
sometimes i come home and do seven hours of math homework. seven.
sometimes i tune out the entire world and think.
sometimes i cry. and cry. and cry some more. then cry until i fall asleep.
sometimes you are lied to.
sometimes you feel like everything you made was destroyed.
sometimes you get your heartbroken.
sometimes i wish things went according to my plan.
sometimes i clean to obtain relief.
sometimes i ignore my phone and the entire outside world.
sometimes i wish all these feeling will go away. now.
sometimes i realize i have something to learn.
sometimes i have these: "the lord compensates the faithful for every loss. love may not come at a time we desire but the faithful will know that every tear today will be returned one hundred fold with tears of joy"... "when you are compelled to give up something, or when things that are dear to you are withdrawn from you, know that this is your lesson to be learned right now. but know also that as you are learning this lesson, god wants to give you something better." on my mind. all the time.
sometimes i am impatient.
sometimes i go against everything shauna ever taught.
sometimes it's refreshing and feels good.
sometimes i can't wait for bear lake. one day.
sometimes i feel like blogging is my escape.