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10.19.2011

sometimes.

sometimes i don't go to bed until 5:30 because i have way too much on my mind.

sometimes i just want to sleep so i can escape from all my problems.

sometimes i stay in bed until one. because of lack of motivation due to situation above.

sometimes school is the last thing i want to do.

sometimes i come home and do seven hours of math homework. seven.

sometimes i tune out the entire world and think.

sometimes i cry. and cry. and cry some more. then cry until i fall asleep.

sometimes you are lied to.

sometimes you feel like everything you made was destroyed.

sometimes you get your heartbroken.

sometimes i wish things went according to my plan.

sometimes i wonder why.

sometimes i clean to obtain relief.

sometimes i ignore my phone and the entire outside world.

sometimes i wish all these feeling will go away. now.

sometimes i realize i have something to learn.

sometimes i remember the atonement and how it cover all pains.

sometimes i have these: "the lord compensates the faithful for every loss. love may not come at a time we desire but the faithful will know that every tear today will be returned one hundred fold with tears of joy"... "when you are compelled to give up something, or when things that are dear to you are withdrawn from you, know that this is your lesson to be learned right now. but know also that as you are learning this lesson, god wants to give you something better." on my mind. all the time.

sometimes i am impatient.

sometimes i go against everything shauna ever taught.

sometimes it's refreshing and feels good.

sometimes i can't wait for bear lake. one day.

sometimes i feel like blogging is my escape.

sometimes i'd like to thank you if you read this and my blog. thank you. (:

2 comments:

  1. Dear Ashlee, I feel the exact same way sometimes. I love your posts cause they relate to me too. If you ever need to talk I am here cause I have gome through some of these things in different way's. Love Britney.

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  2. Ashlee: Ok, can I be a creep? I read your blog. Haha yes, I haven't seen you since high school, but there's something about it that I just love!! This post made my heart break. I have NO idea what's going on in your life (like I said, it's been since high school... haha) but I just wanted to say that I love the quote(s)? that you put at the end. I guess all I wanted to say is to always keep those quotes in mind and know that college is a WHOLE new ball game. :) There are so many people to meet and your life can completely change within a month (trust me, I went to where you're at to meeting my husband in 2-3 months... Haha just enjoy Utah State because it is the greatest and you will meet people who will change your life and help you forget the ones who broke your heart in the past. :) Ok, that's all I had to say. Sorry I'm a creep! haha

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