There are definitely times where I wish I could share everything with this certain person. It would make everything so much easier. For the most part. It would explain so much. Why I am the way I am. Why I do the things I do. What I react in such ways to certain situations. But I'm too afraid. I think I can trust them but there is still a part of me that is hesitant with that trust. Trust that could either make or break us. And breaking is not a place I would want to go. But once again it's such a hesitant decision. I have one foot in the water and the other wanting to go, just too afraid to jump completely in and get soaked.
It's such a nostalgic feeling. A part of me wants to give and share it all, but the other does not. I want this person to be the one who I can turn to with anything. But once again, we go back to the trust. I think I can, and truly feel, that I can trust them. But I don't always have the best judgement.
I fear if I share all I will be rejected.
This person wouldn't want to be my friend any longer.
I fear it will be too much for them to emotionally handle.
I fear I will lose them.
I fear they will judge me.
I fear they will think I'm still the same way.
I fear of losing them.
On a lighter note, one more day!!!!