2012.

so my blog is nowhere near looking presentable, but i'm too lazy to work on it right now and decided i'll write even though my blog looks like a 5 year old colored all over it.

as i reflect over the past year, i feel like not much has happened, nor changed. however, the more i think about minor details i realize a lot has changed. 2012 was a good year.
 i spent a little more than 3 months of the year, completely dedicated to serving the lord and preaching his gopsel to young girls. that experience alone, taught me more than i would have ever thought. i learned more in those short 3 months than i had my entire life. i learned more about the gospel, strengthened my testimony by tenfold, and learned that i can do hard things.
i learned that need to start living to please myself, not others. i realized i've spent the majority of my life livino make others happy; to make them proud of me. no matter what i did, i was never good enough. i was constantly feeling like an awful person and failure at life. i finally decided to stop living that way. i decided that i am going to be me and others can either accept me as i am, or leave me. i began to start living for myself and strive for my own happiness.
i made some of the best of friends in 2012, and am so blessed to have them in my life. life can be the pits sometimes and i'm so grateful i have my friends to help me through the trying times and to ride a long for the joys.
i was tried and tested in 2012 more that i have my entire life. i was tested in ways i would have never thought and had to stand up for myself and my standards. i was tested to see who i was and am still currently on the road to figure that out.

2012 was a full of joy, heartbreak, tears, laughter, discovery, and learning. i cannot wait to see what 2013 brings.